The Second First Post

This is my second attempt at a first blog post.  I tried to create another blog... but accidentally shared my innermost thoughts with my entire Facebook following... so I quickly deleted everything. 

This is me starting over.

I have been advised not to talk about my job online, since everyone knows once things are out there, they are out there for GOOD.  I started this blog to express my feelings in sort of an online journal.  No real names will be used, nor will real company names in order to maintain a hint of privacy.  However, my job is what is giving me the most cause to start this blog. 

A little about me.  I am 28, turning 29 in a few weeks.  I am not married, but have a wonderful boyfriend of 3 years who I love with everything I got.  I own my own condo and have so since just before I turned 25.  I have a caring, supportive family (my brother actually sent me flowers at work because he knew I was feeling down!!) who I would do anything for. My friends are awesome, supportive, and a particular brand of crazy which makes every time I hang out with them a fun experience. By all indicators, life is good.  And life is good... I have my health, everyone I love has their health, and I am employed in one of the toughest economies in a loooooooooong time. I also have just completed my MBA degree from San Jose State University (woo hoo!!)

So why start the blog? What is possibly wrong?

I feel that I am in a very transitional time in my life.  I have felt this way once before when I was about 23.  I was coming back from a trip to Brazil with a girlfriend from college when I just completely dreaded coming back to my life in California.  I took a deep look into myself and realized that I wasn't happy with the way my life was going and needed to re-set.  I promptly got out of my lease and my tiny apartment in Palo Alto, moved home, and developed a new (old) circle of friends. Eventually I quit my job, found a new one closer to home, and moved into a single family home that I rented with my friend Cathy. 

I am feeling rather lost in my life and need to re-set again.  The job that I currently have I originally got as a part time job for some cash flow while I went back to school.  Things changed, and I have been here for about 3 years. Now that I am done with the degree, I don't really know what to do with myself. The job I have is not what I want to do.. well it is close... but there is no room to grow, no further opportunity.  The organization I work for is wonderful and do wonderful things, I just feel that it is time to move on.

I have told my roommate that I am moving home, and she has until October to tell me if she wants to rent the whole place from me or if I need to start looking for someone new to rent it. I feel that a lot of changes are going to be happening in my life lately, and I need an outlet.  I will keep a record of everything that happens and how I feel about it.  Maybe someday I can look back on this and  advise others to / not to do what I did.

Until next post...